Tuesday, August 7, 2007

All About Acceptance...

when I was a child, I grew up with a notion in myself that I will never ever submit myself to average habits. So, whatever I aspired to do, I gave all of myself and succeeded in most of my endeavors. That made me one of the well known kids in town (I am from a small town, so that was fairly easy on my part). But the child is grown now and the dream is gone. I have learnt to submit myself to acceptance. When I look into my life in current days, I feel its only acceptance that has reigned the supreme. Everywhere, I just accept stuffs. Over the years, I have accepted that getting a girl for myself, who will love me, care for me and just take me for granted is far beyond possibility. The development of vitiligo in me has worsen my notion and I have been compelled to put a full stop in it. Rest, I am not sure about my future, my career ahead. So, I have just accepted in myself to do good whatever I am doing now. But, it gives me a big question mark when I see people around me living life the kings size; they live life they feel like, they have females with them or have the capability to lure them. I know all that glitters are not gold. All smiling faces are not happy in their lives. But, I feel atleast they are more normal than me. I am not comparing myself with people around me, but its true that I get the feeling of a pin prick in my ass when I find that life is not very kind with me. So, for me its all about acceptance now. Learning to accept limitations in my effort to be happy in life. If I don't accept limitations then it make me more depressed, although depression is a way of life now.

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2 comments:

kevin said...

"depression is a way of life now"
I dint like this line.....

why do u label things as "limitations" ?? they could just be some qualities which you are not a master of....bt am sure there are milliions of other qualities which you have and noone else has.......

i guess with the current spate of incidents going on, you are bending on the negative side.....

relax dude....go get a chilled beer :)

Unknown said...

I feel the same many a times but something in me pushes me again... wakes me up... sometimes i feel 'such a sucking life i lead'... but there are then moments which i just want to capture and relive them again and again... just don't want to let them go... those moments make me love life again... sometimes when i am down i just try to recollect those moments and smile unvoluntarily...

rightly said sandeep... haloi u need 'more' beer and a looong drive.............