a cool feeling ...

Today, I along with my friend went for test drive of new Optra Magnum. Although, we could not get a test drive as it was raining very heavily but it was a nice feeling to enquire about the specification of a car which I don't know if I will ever be able to buy in my life time. I really liked the car; it was a powerful sedan with 2.0 litre engine, exotic interior and what not !!! The car which we saw in the showroom was a cool metallic black one ... I really liked it. The ex-showroom cost was 11.2 lacs. Really I wanna drive such a luxurious sedan !!! Lemme see when can I make it ...

the light of life ....

I read a poem in my Assamese Literature course in my 10th std. The poem was called "Jivan Jeuti" which translates in English as "The Light of Life". I don't remember the full poem, but one paragraph, still shines in my mind. It says...

Gotowa golap koli
Samay thakote sakhi,
Jivanar sot bali jai,
Jiti phule hahi aaji
Phooloni phulai tole,
Kai loi pahi meli, nehahe dunai
Jivanar sot boli jai.

It translates in English as ...

Collect the petals of Rose.
When you have time, my friend
The flower which blooms today
And make the garden smile
May cease to exist tomorrow
The wave of life fades away...

Now I realise, how true and correct, the wordings of the poem is. We often get busy with our schedules and routines to such an extent that we forget exact timings of the right work in our life. And, when the time flies away, we repent for not doing the right work at the right time. I feel, if these things were taught while we were in our mother's womb, we would have live our life in a better way than we usually lead. Well, just loud thinking, no offence please.

My Friend and the Fish...

It so happened that last Sunday, my friend went to buy fishes. He ended up buying some sea fishes and a cat fish (in live state). He brought it home and instead of eating it, put it in his aquarium. Next day in office, he showed me the videos of the fish, playing in the aquarium. The fish was awesome. He thought, he will eat it after 1 or 2 days. But as days passed by, he developed some sort of affection and fondness for the fish. He bought fish food from the pet's store, and when the fish was not liking those food, he even started giving him insects, earth worms. Can somebody imagine a guy catching cockroaches in his house, asking his friends for cockroaches to feed his dear cat fish? Although I laughed at his deeds, but a person's affection has no bound. If somebody develops affection or fondness for something/someone, he/she can do anything for it. In many cases, the same has proved to be true with me. My friend will put his hand in his aquarium, the fish comes to his hand act as though its trying to sleep there, and the crazy friend of mine will caress the fish's head. I was simply left spellbound when he was telling me all these. But as days were passing, it was a matter of worry for the health of the fish, to put it in a aquarium. So, my friend finally decided to put it in the fish dale near his house, just for the sake of freedom and well-being of his dearest buddy. When he was going to free the fish, he called me up and I could not help but put the events in my blog. A real life example of how small things can give u so much pleasure and happiness.

Hard Work Kills !!!

Yesterday, I complete one month working for a customer escalation for one of the product of my company. When, I look back throughout those 30 days, it looks like a thousand years. Working till 12 midnite almost everyday, making Pizza Hut richer almost each day for my dinner. Although the work has not finished, but for all the work I did, I got killed by atleast 1%, if not more. I was on the impresion that the work will get over by yesterday, but it was a bolt from the blue, when the commitment to the work got extended by an indefinite period. But amidst of all these corporate blues, where do I stand ? May be I can take 2-3 days break and start afresh. I get paid for it, so I have to do it. Thats what professional ethics is. For the 1st time in my 3 yrs. of professional life, I can feel what is stress actually. How fatigue can make your brain totally numb. I feel a pain in my shoulders, as though the weight of the world is on my arms. At this time, I need a cradle, where I can rest my heart and mind. Can Somebody Hear Me?... I Am Screaming From So Far Away .... !!!

Good to See & say WOW !!!

I was at my friend's place this Saturday, who stays in Magarpatta Cyber City in Pune. I was really amazed to see the developments inside the campus. I have been a frequent visitor to his house during our house-pooling days, but I didn't have the opportunity to see the new Jogger's Park being built. When I saw it yesterday, I had just only one word in my mouth ... "WOW". The guys behind the whole plan must have a good futuristic vision, to plan such a park. We were analyzing the techniques implemented to develop the various structures articulating nature to the best possible extent. It was simply great. Even birds were confused if the fish dale made was a real or an artificial one [:-)]. The park is still in the development phase, and 2 yrs. down the line it will be so good to see it, as I have seen it while it was being developed.

The Wet Blanket

I am thankful to people, who always sees the dark side of mine. Coz, it helps me stop for a while, question myself, and ultimately feel sorry (although I never correct myself) for my misdeeds. People says, we learn from our mistakes, but the burden of mistakes becomes so heavy at some point of time that one can't carry it. Many time it happens that well wishers around me organise outings, parties or just eat out events for me, and towards the end of it, I turn out to be the spoilsports. Sometimes, I feel that people likes me very much, but is it true ??? I am still searching for an answer. Probably, I can be a good son, a good brother, but I can never be a good friend for anyone. Because I lack the etiquettes of being good to someone. I am now feeling sick of being a wet-blanket for people around me. What do I do ??? Try finding bliss in loneliness ??? If I cant be good to others, I have no right to be sociable.
But, I am sure that there is a "Good Me" inside me, and if ever someone tried to peek through my soul, they will know it ... But who cares to do that ???

Love & Suffering ...

I love Paulo Coelho's writings, coz he sounds so very realistic to life. I have just started reading his book By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept, and just in the forward of the book, I got a stanza which I liked very much and I wanna put it down in my blog....

... And with love there are no rules. Some may try to control their emotions and develop strategies for their behavior; others may turn to reading books of advice - from experts of relationships - but this is all folly. The heart decides, and what it decides is all that really matters.
At some point of time, we have each said through tears, "I am suffering for a love that's not worth it". We suffer because we feel we are giving more than we receive. We suffer because our love is going unrecognized. We suffer because we are unable to impose our own rules. But ultimately there is no good reason for our suffering, for in every love lies the seed of our growth.
True love is an act of total surrender.

Well, what have been written sounds so good and spiritual. But, very few of us have that courage and strength to overcome the pain and suffering bestowed upon us by love. Life would have been so good to live, if one gets back the love one gives someone.